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Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts...

My mantra for the day!

So i called the clinic as i hadn't heard from them and i was told they would call today!! Impatient i know but hey times are hard, stress levels are high! She knew about me which was cool. They have to run all referrals past the Dr to see if he thinks we are in the right place! He seemed to think we were which is good, but as we are private i am sure he wouldn't turn us away anyway!

So we are booked in for the 20th September at 4pm.... The lady on the phone was so helpful.

She said that DH would have to give a semen sample on the day of first appt if poss, and i asked if our own doctor report was ok. She explained this wouldn't do, as the embryologists have to look at the sperm to see how it copes with washing and other procedures etc.

I explained that DH has difficulty "producing" to order and could we bring some in...she said no. Its better he does at least one sample at the clinic before the "actual ICSI day" he will definitely have to do it on the actual day as they need fresh sperm, so he wont be too pressurised for that one having already done it once - makes sense i guess. She did say that if it is really terrible for him he could do just the one and they could freeze it for ICSI but they do prefer fresh for obvious reasons.

So then i ask about the waiting room and how busy it will be, as that would put pressure on him too, as he would be in a tiny room round the corner knowing people are there maybe listening in etc - well obviously not but you would be panicking wouldn't you! I am so scared he wont be able to do it, but i have to tell myself to have faith, he has already had the reversal for us, and i think if he focuses and prepares he will be fine... at least i hope so. Anyway, the receptionist said that he could come in and do a sample in the early morning if he preferred when things are quieter, or we could look at times the clinic will be very quiet for him, which i thought was really nice of them...

Watch this space i guess, cant believe its a whole month plus some! The good thing is i am in the hospital that day anyway for my laser treatment so its all good - positive thoughts, positive thoughts!

Girl at work is pregnant with the most perfect bump and i am so jealous i can hardly bare to look at her. I can see her tummy button is starting to pop out, she strokes her tum, she has 6 weeks left at work..... i wish i wish this could be me :(