WE ARE PREGNANT!
The week before we are due to go and sort out IVF treatment we get a miracle BFP! And boy is it a miracle, all of our tests say this is not possible... :)
I feel bad saying "pregnant" out loud, because its still really early, and i am oober superstitious, i am 5 weeks 5 days today... i am petrified and elated all at once. Every twinge and niggle i feel worries me to death and i swear my panic attacks are going to come back real soon! I am so worried that it will be an ectopic, as i have started to get a few sharp twinges in my right side today.... other than this though i had a few AF like pains during the first week which seem to have all but gone now. I get the odd dull ache or twinge if i stand up too quickly sometimes too.
Oddly my bowels aren't blocked up as all the books say, more the other way! Can someone reassure me please!!!!
I don't feel too bad at the moment apart from worrying about pains etc. I have had some nausea but it soon goes away after a little food. If i eat a big meal however i pay for it after!! Seems small and regular is the way to go! I have heard that the 6 week mark is when nausea really kicks in so we will wait and see on that one!
I had complete insomnia the week before BFP and a few days after but am settling back into sleep now. I have awful lower back pain at times, but have started to do the exercises mentioned in all the books, in a bid to strengthen my back and combat this pain! Warm baths are a god send!
The boobies are swelling and veiny and starting to darken ever so slightly!
I have booked a private scan on the 2nd Nov to check the dates are correct, and hopefully to put my mind at rest about this little pea inside of me... I AM HOPING AND PRAYING THIS IS GONNA BE OK.... Here in the UK you don't get to have a scan until 12-14 weeks which i think is awful!!! I have been to the doc who referred me straight to the midwife, but i haven't heard from her either, so i am kinda on my own for the next few weeks :(
I am over the moon but being cautiously optimistic (contradiction or what) - pray for us please x
FH x
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Monday, 18 October 2010
Sunday, 5 September 2010
15 Days to go!
Until our first appt at fertility clinic, hope it goes okay and they dont try to delay us starting treatment as i am really keen to start ASAP! Even hubby is counting the days which quite frankly surprised me! Turns out the consultant is off for 3 months and i sure don't want to wait that long...
Took a look at his swimmers under the microscope the other day and i have to say they look pretty good, better than ever infact, but i am sure a test will tell us better!! Not too long til we get that done either... still not sure how he is going to do it ....
Had another psycho "i could be pregnant" 2ww this month, boobs were sorer than ever and i havent bloated or had the pain i usually get up to a week before but today at 13dpo, i started spotting and got a negative test AGAIN.... Dunno why i insist on testing, but i had done well to hold out as long as i did lol.
Hoping all you trying to conceive and all you able ones are well and good!
Forever Hopeful x
Took a look at his swimmers under the microscope the other day and i have to say they look pretty good, better than ever infact, but i am sure a test will tell us better!! Not too long til we get that done either... still not sure how he is going to do it ....
Had another psycho "i could be pregnant" 2ww this month, boobs were sorer than ever and i havent bloated or had the pain i usually get up to a week before but today at 13dpo, i started spotting and got a negative test AGAIN.... Dunno why i insist on testing, but i had done well to hold out as long as i did lol.
Hoping all you trying to conceive and all you able ones are well and good!
Forever Hopeful x
Thursday, 5 August 2010
Here we are at the beginning...
Well the beginning of blogging at least!
So who am i? We will stick to the screen name "Forever Hopeful" (FH) for now. I am a 28 year old female from the UK, if it helps you to "visualise" me then i am a size 14, blue eyes, blonde hair, straight teeth... My hubby is 48, yes age gap woo hoo, and we have been together for 7 years, and have been married for 4 months :)
I am currently in month 15 of "officially" trying to conceive, needless to say, i am not yet pregnant.
I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome that has been described as "chronic", and my partner is a vasectomy "victim".
Why victim you ask? I feel that so many men opt to have a vasectomy without fully thinking through the consequences of doing so.
Of course, when the decision is made its usually out of respect to his partner who has no doubt bore children to him. "She did that for me, so i will do this for her". Of course in the majority of cases this remains the right decision for them.
In my husbands case, the vasectomy itself caused many problems, pain for many years, tender testicles, and of course the desire to have children with his new wife - me....
Having had 4 children from his first marriage we anticipated that a reversal would be successful, which is was in the most part.
We spent hours and hours researching the best surgeon to do the job and found Dr Dawson in Hartlepool to be the best guy for "us". So in March 2009 off we trotted to have the operation which in reversal terms was an absolute sucess. Both sides were connected and sperm was seen on both sides - great news! Here comes our baby!!
WRONG!
Hubby healed really quickly post op and we were so excited to try, we waited i think 3 weeks instead of the 4 to start trying, but he couldnt help himself and theres no stopping a horny guy! A mans gotta do what a mans gotta do!
Serm count was monitored over 3 tests from July 2009 to Jan 2010 - i will post these later, but in short the lil guys have 100% antibodies (typical post reversal), poor motility and poor morphology.... no chance of catching my eggy!
What about my PCOS then?
I see the endochronology team on a regular basis, they take bloods, make me pee in pots for 24 hour periods, discuss my symptoms.... not much else doing really!
They put me on Metformin for many months to help control my weight as PCOS means you can store more fat from the sugars you eat... to be fair, combined with diet and excercise this really helped for a while, but i started to get bad liver pain and nausea after about a year of taking Metformin so i stopped and i have never felt better! I think the tablets became part of my "focus" to get pregnant when all they really did was make me feel rubbish.
So i am off Metformin, i did exercise for about a year before my wedding in April 2010, but since then i have had post wedding "emptyness" and this combined with infertility = one lazy mamma wannabe :(
So who am i? We will stick to the screen name "Forever Hopeful" (FH) for now. I am a 28 year old female from the UK, if it helps you to "visualise" me then i am a size 14, blue eyes, blonde hair, straight teeth... My hubby is 48, yes age gap woo hoo, and we have been together for 7 years, and have been married for 4 months :)
I am currently in month 15 of "officially" trying to conceive, needless to say, i am not yet pregnant.
I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome that has been described as "chronic", and my partner is a vasectomy "victim".
Why victim you ask? I feel that so many men opt to have a vasectomy without fully thinking through the consequences of doing so.
Of course, when the decision is made its usually out of respect to his partner who has no doubt bore children to him. "She did that for me, so i will do this for her". Of course in the majority of cases this remains the right decision for them.
In my husbands case, the vasectomy itself caused many problems, pain for many years, tender testicles, and of course the desire to have children with his new wife - me....
Having had 4 children from his first marriage we anticipated that a reversal would be successful, which is was in the most part.
We spent hours and hours researching the best surgeon to do the job and found Dr Dawson in Hartlepool to be the best guy for "us". So in March 2009 off we trotted to have the operation which in reversal terms was an absolute sucess. Both sides were connected and sperm was seen on both sides - great news! Here comes our baby!!
WRONG!
Hubby healed really quickly post op and we were so excited to try, we waited i think 3 weeks instead of the 4 to start trying, but he couldnt help himself and theres no stopping a horny guy! A mans gotta do what a mans gotta do!
Serm count was monitored over 3 tests from July 2009 to Jan 2010 - i will post these later, but in short the lil guys have 100% antibodies (typical post reversal), poor motility and poor morphology.... no chance of catching my eggy!
What about my PCOS then?
I see the endochronology team on a regular basis, they take bloods, make me pee in pots for 24 hour periods, discuss my symptoms.... not much else doing really!
They put me on Metformin for many months to help control my weight as PCOS means you can store more fat from the sugars you eat... to be fair, combined with diet and excercise this really helped for a while, but i started to get bad liver pain and nausea after about a year of taking Metformin so i stopped and i have never felt better! I think the tablets became part of my "focus" to get pregnant when all they really did was make me feel rubbish.
So i am off Metformin, i did exercise for about a year before my wedding in April 2010, but since then i have had post wedding "emptyness" and this combined with infertility = one lazy mamma wannabe :(
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