Down, down, down... :(

Things seem really tough at the moment. DH and i are arguing at the silliest of things, and trying to get him to sit down and talk about the tx is like trying to take a dog away from food... I tried to be supportive over the wkend and discuss the "sample" situation, and he was receptive at first, and then got totally embarrassed and flipped - we had a massive fight and are on barely speaking terms 2 days later....

Not sure how to deal with it really... i have been with this man every day for 7 years, and i am not getting him at all at the moment, and his tactic of not talking is not helping... to give him his due he did come to me after the fight and say he knows he can be insensitive and is sorry for that, but no sooner had he apologised he was bitching at me again! Stress? Worry about tx/work/life? I thought it was the women that were supposed to be hard to work out...

I tell him i "need" to be able to talk to him about how i feel about tx etc but he just doesn't seem to care at the moment... I am at a total loss...

My car broke when he tried to fix it this weekend which hasn't helped at all, and i am sat here on my own (finally, i think space is a good thing, and we did sleep in separate beds last night) waiting for car parts, and contemplating what on earth is going on with my life! I feel totally alone, i don't really have friends i can unload on, and i don't like to be a burden anyway!

I keep thinking i will be effectively going through tx alone, but that is certainly no way to bring a child into the world, gah, gah, gah....

Hope your lives are better

FH X