Here we are at the beginning...

Well the beginning of blogging at least!

So who am i? We will stick to the screen name "Forever Hopeful" (FH) for now. I am a 28 year old female from the UK, if it helps you to "visualise" me then i am a size 14, blue eyes, blonde hair, straight teeth... My hubby is 48, yes age gap woo hoo, and we have been together for 7 years, and have been married for 4 months :)

I am currently in month 15 of "officially" trying to conceive, needless to say, i am not yet pregnant.

I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome that has been described as "chronic", and my partner is a vasectomy "victim".

Why victim you ask? I feel that so many men opt to have a vasectomy without fully thinking through the consequences of doing so.

Of course, when the decision is made its usually out of respect to his partner who has no doubt bore children to him. "She did that for me, so i will do this for her". Of course in the majority of cases this remains the right decision for them.

In my husbands case, the vasectomy itself caused many problems, pain for many years, tender testicles, and of course the desire to have children with his new wife - me....

Having had 4 children from his first marriage we anticipated that a reversal would be successful, which is was in the most part.

We spent hours and hours researching the best surgeon to do the job and found Dr Dawson in Hartlepool to be the best guy for "us". So in March 2009 off we trotted to have the operation which in reversal terms was an absolute sucess. Both sides were connected and sperm was seen on both sides - great news! Here comes our baby!!

WRONG!

Hubby healed really quickly post op and we were so excited to try, we waited i think 3 weeks instead of the 4 to start trying, but he couldnt help himself and theres no stopping a horny guy! A mans gotta do what a mans gotta do!

Serm count was monitored over 3 tests from July 2009 to Jan 2010 - i will post these later, but in short the lil guys have 100% antibodies (typical post reversal), poor motility and poor morphology.... no chance of catching my eggy!

What about my PCOS then?

I see the endochronology team on a regular basis, they take bloods, make me pee in pots for 24 hour periods, discuss my symptoms.... not much else doing really!

They put me on Metformin for many months to help control my weight as PCOS means you can store more fat from the sugars you eat... to be fair, combined with diet and excercise this really helped for a while, but i started to get bad liver pain and nausea after about a year of taking Metformin so i stopped and i have never felt better! I think the tablets became part of my "focus" to get pregnant when all they really did was make me feel rubbish.

So i am off Metformin, i did exercise for about a year before my wedding in April 2010, but since then i have had post wedding "emptyness" and this combined with infertility = one lazy mamma wannabe :(