18.5 weeks, thats like almost half way!

I cant believe that i am almost half way!! Little ones movement are more noticeable now, but they seem to be quite sporadic. A couple weeks ago i could time when he/she would be more active, but at the moment theres no pattern...
I do notice that my bump goes hard at some times during the day, and i have put this down to baby moving towards the front.... that said, i have had a UTI and that gave me some "tightenings" but i dont think it is that that i am feeling now.
UTI has been a nightmare, the doctors go crazy when you are pregnant with a UTI! I have peed in at least 4 pots in the last 2 weeks for testing, and been to the docs 2 times for results... the last one seemed ok, but the receptionist called today to tell me to collect some more penicillin even though i Saw the doc 2 days ago and all was ok?!?! I booked in to see doc instead on Thursday, as i think there is some confusion and i don't want to take pills if i dont need to, i certainly dont feel UTI ish.... that said i am peeing alot at night still - anyone else do this anyway while pregnant??
I am still in non maternity clothes, although i cant do my trousers up so had to buy a "belly belt" pack and a belly cover thingy to help keep things covered! Maternity trousers are huge and have massive stretchy bump covers that i just dont need right now!
Bump isnt really that big either, so i am looking forward to the 20 wk scan to check all is ok etc!! I have promised myself i will relax a bit after this scan and start to enjoy this pregnancy!!
I have called the physios regarding my pubic pain and am waiting for an appt, but we keep missing each others calls which sucks :(

Boobs are continuing to grow ever bigger! Rest assured should i fall off a boat i will float!!!

Tiredness seems to be the name of the day still, and i find the afternoons are worse (i could do with a doze now), but i find it hard to sleep at night OR to lay in which is very frustrating...

Anyways, i must get on here more often i am a bad blogger!!!!

FH X

p.s acid..... burping....acid :~(

Nause-ARGHHHHH

Wow its fair to say i have been truly hit by the vomitting truck! I had a good week back at work last week, and managed to keep small amounts of food in me all day :) Then this week happened! I have spent nearly all of this week with my head back in the bucket/toilet/any vessel thats near! I have only kept 3 bits of toast down in 3 days, and yesterday even liquid wasnt staying down.... today however i found restbite in lucozade...what an amazing product it is, and i havent been sick!
It doesnt help that i have a mucousy nose which makes me gag quite alot and thus starts the sickness off again!
I guess its a good sign to be so ill, but i really would like to be a human again please!
Breast tenderness comes and goes, but still wearing a bra at night which helps.
Cant see a bump yet (obviously), but i certainly feel quite full in my uterus if i lean anything on it.
Saw my midwife for the first time this week. She seemed a bit "wet", more interested in paperwork than me, and when i told her about the sickness she told me to eat....ummmm go figure! Sheesh. I see her again at 16 weeks, so pretty much on my own until then. We should have our scan before this however.

So at the moment, my life is of the head in buckett form, with as much work as poss in between!

Thanks for all your comments, and i hope you are all well.

FH X

8 weeks tomorrow......and breattthhh

I have neglected my bloggerly duties! Thanks for your kind thoughts and comments - i guess you want an update!!
I was sent home from the hospital and had to wait until the Monday to go to the early pregnancy unit. The weekend was awful, i was still bleeding lightly, bright red blood, but i had no cramps and no clots. I spoke to a girl friend of mine who had 2 miscarriages in the past and she said no pain was a good sign, so i was mildy hopeful but still soooo scared and frightened.
So Monday came and i was taken in for my scan "the probe". The scan lady kinda frowned alot and i was expecting the worst, but she then said "looks like we're in business", i let a few tears roll down my face, and she briefly showed us the fetal sac, and i could see a heartbeat! They found a fibroid in my womb, and she couldnt see my right ovary, but basically everything was fine. I then had to see a doctor who explained that she didnt know why i was bleeding, but it could be cervical erosion which means an irritated cervix in short. She had a look and said there was a bit of erosion, but not too much to explain the bleeding. She said it could have been the placenta bedding into the uterus...but other than that no reason.... Sheesh.
So last week i stayed off of work and the sickess HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK! I have had my head in a bucket like ALOT!! I had to go to the docs in the end who gave me some travel tablets, which were ok but totally knocked me out! I have since figured that if i take half a dose its much better and i can function at the same time. But i only take them when i absolutely need to, as i dont want to use drugs if i can help it - but i needed them!
So the bleeding probably stopped by the tuesday, but i still had a browny, pinky discharge until today really. I am keeping my fingers crossed.
My boobs have started to hurt a bit more the last week to, and i am already well endowed in that dept, so i have started to wear a bra to bed. I like the fact they are preparing themselves!
I did have a private scan booked before the bleed for today infact, but we cancelled when we saw the embryo, and i want to let things settle before i go shoving more objects up there!! Which brings me to sex i miss the closeness with DH. He has been a trooper and not complained at all but i kinda wanna complain lol! I know its about the bigger picture though.
Grr i just lost a whole load of stuff - internet explorer sucks!!!
So my manager has been very supportive, I have 2 managers and i told my newest one first what was happening, and she has been fab. I deliver training for my local county council and today she told me to pull back from delivery until i am 12 weeks. Pushing, pulling, lifting and standing too long are not good at the moment so i am soo happy she has supported me to do this. Not what i expected. My other manager "sarah" is a married lesbian, and has spent many thousands trying to have a baby with her wife "babs". Babs has 4 kids already, and refuses to let sarah carry a baby because she likes to "carry" and wouldnt accept the baby if sarah carried it  lunatic if you ask me. This has really messes sarahs head up and since i told her my news she has been aloof and off work too... she is reluctant to show support in my need to be careful and i am worried she is gonna go over the edge... I feel so sorry for her but dunno how to approach this bit... I guess i need to just focus on me, harsh as that sounds.
So it seems for now i am ok, but who knows what the next week will hold!! I am sorry for the late blog, i just couldnt face anything last week!
Love and luck
FH X

BLOOD

I am or at least i hope i still am 6 weeks +3 today. Yesterday i had just started to relax a little about this pregnancy, i have been having some cravings for certain foods, like steak pie, so headed out to find some - i wasnt succesful but settled for a chilli instead!
I noticed some pressure in my womb area as i was wondering around the store, and didnt really think anything of it. I also had some stabbing pains in my right ovary area (which i have been getting a hint of the last few days). It wasnt very painful at all but enough to notice...

I got home, shoved the chilli in the microwave and went for a pee. When i wiped there was bright red blood all over the tissue... i kinda said "oh f*ck" and called hubby to tell him (answerphone grr) and went straght to the ER.

It seemes to turn pinky by the time i had got there but still had the stabby psin in right ovary. They took bloods, said my urine was full of blood but there was basically nothing they can do and sent me home. They booked me a scan at the early pregnancy unit on Monday morning - another weekend stressing...

As i left the ER the blood was red again, but overnight seems to have stopped, i may have passed a small clot last night but not sure as it was in the loo! I havent had cramping, just the stabby pain....

FH