8 weeks tomorrow......and breattthhh

I have neglected my bloggerly duties! Thanks for your kind thoughts and comments - i guess you want an update!!
I was sent home from the hospital and had to wait until the Monday to go to the early pregnancy unit. The weekend was awful, i was still bleeding lightly, bright red blood, but i had no cramps and no clots. I spoke to a girl friend of mine who had 2 miscarriages in the past and she said no pain was a good sign, so i was mildy hopeful but still soooo scared and frightened.
So Monday came and i was taken in for my scan "the probe". The scan lady kinda frowned alot and i was expecting the worst, but she then said "looks like we're in business", i let a few tears roll down my face, and she briefly showed us the fetal sac, and i could see a heartbeat! They found a fibroid in my womb, and she couldnt see my right ovary, but basically everything was fine. I then had to see a doctor who explained that she didnt know why i was bleeding, but it could be cervical erosion which means an irritated cervix in short. She had a look and said there was a bit of erosion, but not too much to explain the bleeding. She said it could have been the placenta bedding into the uterus...but other than that no reason.... Sheesh.
So last week i stayed off of work and the sickess HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK! I have had my head in a bucket like ALOT!! I had to go to the docs in the end who gave me some travel tablets, which were ok but totally knocked me out! I have since figured that if i take half a dose its much better and i can function at the same time. But i only take them when i absolutely need to, as i dont want to use drugs if i can help it - but i needed them!
So the bleeding probably stopped by the tuesday, but i still had a browny, pinky discharge until today really. I am keeping my fingers crossed.
My boobs have started to hurt a bit more the last week to, and i am already well endowed in that dept, so i have started to wear a bra to bed. I like the fact they are preparing themselves!
I did have a private scan booked before the bleed for today infact, but we cancelled when we saw the embryo, and i want to let things settle before i go shoving more objects up there!! Which brings me to sex i miss the closeness with DH. He has been a trooper and not complained at all but i kinda wanna complain lol! I know its about the bigger picture though.
Grr i just lost a whole load of stuff - internet explorer sucks!!!
So my manager has been very supportive, I have 2 managers and i told my newest one first what was happening, and she has been fab. I deliver training for my local county council and today she told me to pull back from delivery until i am 12 weeks. Pushing, pulling, lifting and standing too long are not good at the moment so i am soo happy she has supported me to do this. Not what i expected. My other manager "sarah" is a married lesbian, and has spent many thousands trying to have a baby with her wife "babs". Babs has 4 kids already, and refuses to let sarah carry a baby because she likes to "carry" and wouldnt accept the baby if sarah carried it  lunatic if you ask me. This has really messes sarahs head up and since i told her my news she has been aloof and off work too... she is reluctant to show support in my need to be careful and i am worried she is gonna go over the edge... I feel so sorry for her but dunno how to approach this bit... I guess i need to just focus on me, harsh as that sounds.
So it seems for now i am ok, but who knows what the next week will hold!! I am sorry for the late blog, i just couldnt face anything last week!
Love and luck
FH X